A message from above or at least what I thought...

Finally I found myself having a day packed with activities, 3/4 of the day actually. Exams are done with and there goes year 2 as well. Four months of holiday to look forward to and Im stressed as hell in less than a week after exams. Its funny how stress follows you around, if it isnt study stress its boredom stress or just some other people screwing things up for you. Its inevitable, somehow it'll catch up with you. But today... it caught on to me but somehow I managed to shook it off without having to self-motivate.

Back to my day, dance training at 9am, we did a lot of endurance training (physiology was on my mind throughout the exercise), this really drained half of my energy and I found myself dragging through the remaining session. So after training, I headed off to 1U to meet up with some friends for a K session. They decided to catch a movie immediately after K, I didnt join them as I planned to go to the club house to settle some membership issues and swim while Im there. So here's the part where I felt that something struck a message to me. It was around 4pm when I left 1U and was pouring really heavily (I was inside so I didnt know it was raining when I said I was heading off to the club house). So I was thinking, "should I go home instead and come again another day?" I drove on. About halfway to my destination along the highway, I saw clear skies in a distance of what I thought was where Im heading, wow I couldnt be happier. However, the moment lasted not even a good minute when the road curved away from the light and pointed me to dark stormy clouds, my real destination. I drove on, I didnt know why... I never thought of turning back. The rain got even heavier to the point where I had to use full wiper speed or else I wouldnt be able to see the road. The journey was sluggish, roads were flooded, a few accidents... what surprised me most was when I was about 1km+ before reaching, the rain gradually stopped! Not even a single drop! Mo**** F*****! Im not lying. Only then my mind came back to my physical piece of brain and I realised why I drove on.

I was stoning while driving, but this was the message that came to my focus: When we are thrown into an issue, naturally we would seek the most obvious form of comfort to alleviate the problem. But if we never take risks, we would never know what is two steps ahead of us. The phase from light to the dark clouds made me want to turn towards home but I reached my club house without a single drop of rain on me. I didnt give up or give in and I havent done so either when it came to settling some my thoughts. Neither have I given up on my hopes and beliefs.

Though the staff in the office pissed me off regarding the membership (inefficient bunch of wan ton soup), I had a good swim anyhow! =)

Enjoy the holidays!

Here's something for my friend who was so pissed at a bitch today!

Jo Jo Jo-n... Moodless like there's no end, and she doesnt feel like talking, oh man! How can I make her understand, that no matter what Ill always be there whatever the circumstance!

haha... well that's what friends and especially besties are for...

12th October 2009

If only I could live life like it was my last day, maybe then I'd discover what's missing in my life at the moment...

Exams are near, like very very near expecially since I havent really sat my ass down and focus on any subjects yet. I have slacked much this semester, there could be a few reasons why but Id like to put those aside in the mean time, however I can say that I enjoyed uni life most beginning with this sem so far. Its that time again where Ill tell myself to stop fooling around, come up with a study timetable, stick to it and prove that all the money invested in my studies at monash is valued.

Somebody, anybody, kick my ass hard enough until it leaves a print. I need the extra push!

Today was a weird day... I was feeling very tired til the point of no facial expression... my mood was not affected I probably just needed that kick again to get my energy circulating. However, something could have made my day should that event have occurred. It never did. It was one of those little details that I though would happen but arrgghh! hahaha. I realised that certain things have changed that's all.

When life takes a turn.

Im sure everyone has experienced times where they feel on top of the World and nothing could take them down. Then there are those less fortunate times when they feel they are at the deepest trenches of the ocean and still being shat on! Lets face it, happy go lucky doesn't really last too long kids, yup that's right. Life is like a business cycle whereby you'll have the boom followed by a downswing, trough and finally the recovery period. Im a science student and even I know that, how shitty can this get? Nah Im just using the cycle as an analogy. But one quite worrying fact I know is that the higher you climb, the harder you'll fall should you decide to trip. It applies to almost anything from a business to relationships, whatever it is... When you trip, you'll fall hard depending on how high you've climbed. The thing is, we dont just lose it all when it happens, that's why I mentioned "decide to trip". Because it is your loss of balance that determines the trip. I've also learned that fate does not control everything, it is a fact that most of the time the power of decision is within our own palms. Some of the things that could lead to a downfall are selfishness, greed, lust and ignorance. Sometimes things can change so quickly that it confuses you inside out. One moment you feel great and next you're wondering why you felt great...

Good news is that hey, why climb alllll the way to the top and risk falling hard? I always think that slow is steady and steady is progression. If you can build a foundation at every successful step, you could rise and risk a gentle fall or no fall at all right? Patience is platinum, a masterpiece can never be rushed and so does all the things that matters most to you.

Its the 21st of September 2009

Here I find myself, moodless to do anything that spells 'report, study or assignment' so instead I've decided to squeeze some spare brain juice on updating my blog. Hmm now what is there to write about? Nothing... nothing? Lets write about nothing...

"Nothing" according to BBC dictionary, is defined as an absence of things of a particular kind, for example objects, events, or ideas. It can also mean something or someone is very unimportant or uninteresting. You can also use nothing in front of an adjective, to refer to a situation, event, or activity and to say that it does not have a particular quality mentioned...

When we say nothing... What do we really mean by that? For example, when someone asks you what you're doing or why do you look troubled or what's on your mind? And you reply "nothing..." You're probably being dishonest most of the time. I admit that I do that at times especially when I feel lazy to explain. But most of the time we're actually thinking of something rather than plain nothing no? Give it a thought.