That uneasy feeling...

Negative energy hovers around me... Its the 2nd week of year 2 at monash, this week itself and until the end of the semester puts a temporary halt to a free and easy life. Weekly lab reports begin to pour in and assignments right around the corner. Performance for CnS week 2mrw, i am officially f***ed for that cuz im still unclear about the cha cha. The load of dance practice increases to about 3 times a week if i didnt hear wrongly. Oh and i just remembered that i agreed to work a little on sundays now yay! toooooot~ me!


I am so dead. I dont know how im going to cope. This is totally different from the holidays. But a challenge is a challenge no? Lets see how it goes...

If you're unhappy about the way others have moulded you, get up and friggin mould yourself.

I came across a very powerful statement today while i picked up and browsed through a book.

Its not some funky statement with terror words and all but simple and straight to the point.

It goes like this:

"You can do it if you believe you can."

Its not my first time hearing or reading this of course. It just reminded me that self-motivation is by far the most crucial form of motivation yet. For me. Makes sense because if it doesnt begin in your mind, body and soul then where is it going to come from? A friend? possible... but what if this person doesnt have the time to attend to you? hmm?

Ever since the hols started, no, actually way before that if i think about it now, i've been squeezing out time to a self enhancement project. Not just fitness wise but building self-confidence, self-esteem and always trying to lead a cheerful life. Dancing is without a doubt one of the main factors for the contribution. Working at Starbucks, FnB line/customer care, initiating and engaging in convo with customers. Reading magazines and a few pages off books. Having to-die-for friends. All played a part. However, without the most important factor, YOU, the whole experiment is an utterly disgusting beyond failure.

Okay lets get this straight, im not boasting about how im so damn confident, think highly of myself and bla bla bla. All im saying is that is has helped me discover a much more happier and optimistic side of myself. And i believe that YOU are much better off than i am. Never give up.

-Smiling is contagious, when you smile, the World smiles back at you-

Im sleepy.....

So im back after what? A few months? lol i think i did forget at one point whether i had a blog or not... Anyway, cheers to a fantastic almost 4 months holiday! woo! And i am proud to say that i've made great use of this holiday. Ahem... let me break it down for you. So i began with a holiday to Malacca with my bunch of uni friends. Then i enrolled in friggin LAN subjects, 2 subjects to be precise. The course was about 2 months? Moving along, midway through my summer lan course i got a job at Starbucks Gardens (15th dec 08). On top of that i had dance classes at uni every thursday and on some occasions multiple times a week whenever a performance in nearing. Plus, i had to spend quality time with my friends aww... Oh not to forget collecting angpows for CNY all that visiting! Yeap, i definitely had something to do everyday, if not it was just work work and more work.


A quick update on my goals for the summer holidays of 2008 - 09:

1) Enroll and complete remaining LAN subjects. (Achieved. Past my M.S. and BKA baby!! so happy for myself)

2) Get a job at Starbucks. (Achieved. I thought it was impossible with my already busy schedule)

3) 60kg by March 09. (Failed. Hey i was well fed throughout the hols okay. Worked out a lot too but my metabolic rate you know... up to today i did put on 1kg sth)

4) Get a valentine. (Aborted with immediate effect :D postponed la)


Apparently sometime during the hols a couple of my close friends told me, "dont forget your friends!". I should've written this up a long time ago but i was busy. Well its not my fault that i couldnt make it for whatever outing they've planned. Simply because i had to prioritise. Other than that they just dont understand the fact that petrol is expensive and my parents dont subsidise whenever i use the car for my own leisure. Also bear in mind that i dont live nearby them. So? okay maybe its still my fault cuz there was this one time they were at mid valley, i was totally broke and exhausted. so i never made it. Sorry for that, but the rest you guys should understand.

Just at the tip of an iceberg.

"Welcome to hell!!!" That's the common greeting i receive from my manager when i step in the store room of my current work place for the night shift. It has been 5 days of work. Im cramming a hell load of things into my head, but i think im adapting to it slow and steadily... So it seems la. Minus the trippy-ness of remembering recipe and name of drinks, plus the sore legs, aches and blisters on my toes. Limited free drinks during shifts, mark out foods, enjoyable staff and definitely the smile you put on customers faces is the ultimate combination for a great day at work. Currently, nothing makes me happier than to see myself through this so called "tough life" everyday. But in reality, the level of toughness is but the tip of an iceberg. See, my parents are overseas, leaving my bro and I to take care of the house. Considering the fact that i've been working night shift (3pm - 11+pm) and come home quite late at night, i feel like there's no equal distribution of work in this house. So chores aside. Today, i was unlucky as my bro couldn't drop me off to work. Why not drive? To hell with that! Driving to work should never ever be an option unless you earn a shit load of money to pay parking and mr. traffic is kind to you. So i decided to be less fortunate (No im not cheap, im being smart). I walked out under the scorching sun and took a bus to work. The same thing happened after work. Waited at the bus stand i thought i wouldn't have to wait in, took the bus and walked home. I only spent 2 bucks on transport, amazing! But I cant feel my legs... Anyhow, its all about the experience. Try putting yourself in the shoes of those who dont have a car or would try to save as much as possible. Tough...

Happening happenings!!

Nothing much going on with my life... Usual routine on every working day... Nothing happening on class days... No dance classes until next year... Dance performance last weekend... and finally Christmas Eve at Sunway Pyramid!! Let the pictures do the talking.

The feast:

The hungry people:

The Santa Claus:The snowy effect:The single and lonely peeps on X'mas eve:

Remember, life's a bitch, live with it, deal with it. No escape routes there.

Cheers, im off. Starting work earlier 2mrw.

A series of unexpected events of the same type...

I waited about 3 weeks or so... Well ok i did not really wait, i just left it aside and moved on. What did i wait for? A phone call. A business call? hmm. just one that'll get me an interview @ Starbucks! I dont understand why i've always wanted to work at Starbucks, maybe because its one of the top 100 best places to work (according to website), its famous, heard its fun, friendly, for experience, or maybe just a flexible job for my bombastic summer classes timing. Anyway, i received a call last thurs and being stuck in a traffic jam never felt the same again... for that moment only. I was called up for interview at Starbucks Gardens! So I went to the outlet the following day. When i was there, there were 6 including myself who were interviewing as well. How did it go? Wonderful. I could roughly remember his compliments, "I like your personality, it is not something you can weigh and I like your enthusiasm too". So that was the side that boosted my confidence. The inescapable 'but' comes in. He added, "But to be honest with you, your timing REALLY SUCKS!", I agreed. He was referring to my summer class timetable. If you were to go to Starbucks and pick up a green brochure regarding job application, you would notice a working timetable behind for office use only. Lol when i told him my timing for the week, he took that timetable and filled in my class timing instead! "your timing really sucks", if you were applying for a job with a demanding manager, that short sentence could virtually crush all hopes or compliments. Nvm. So i would know whether im selected 2 days after or else sorry la, according to him. I really understood if I didnt get chosen as i mentioned before, which manager would want to hire someone and have to suit his schedule? But what i didnt and probably would never understand was the unexpected phone call this evening saying that im hired! I was freaking happy. Whatever he was thinking when he picked me, he definitely made the right choice. I wont let him down. I want to thank my grandma for her prayers for me as she knows that i really want this job. I have Shea to thank for her incredible lady luck, seriously its quite freaky especially if it happens twice in a row... Today Ee Von also mentioned that they called her for the job only after sometime, I find that a lil freaky too cuz i told her i didnt make it before that, but anyway thx!

Well ppl, visit me at Starbucks Gardens soon!